Lately, I have spruced up around here. I’ve updated my website and blog and I’m starting my Senior Team up again. There’s a good chance you’re checking me out before contacting me, so I thought it would be a good time to write a little something personal about WHY I chose photography. Stick with me, here. I might get a little sappy.
When I was in high school, I was the marching band’s historian. I carried a camera with me everywhere to document our shenanigans. One year, for Christmas or a birthday, I asked for a ‘good’ camera. Having the thing with me everywhere I went lead to eventually taking pictures of more than just my band nerd friends. I thought my butterfly and flower art was pretty neat, so I showed it off to some friends and family members. My uncle, I’m sure half-jokingly, said that I should be a photographer. “Oh, yeah”, I thought. “There are actually people that do this for a living.”
I’d never really thought about what I wanted to be when I grew up, other than the 6th Spice Girl. My ‘good’ camera eventually died and I upgraded. That happened several times until I got an actual good camera. By the time I was a senior in high school, I was taking some senior portraits for my classmates just for practice. I loved it, despite my introverted-ness and social anxiety. I kept taking photos of nature, but started doing sessions for people, charging a little to save and upgrade my camera and equipment along the way. After a failed attempt at art school, I realized I’m meant to have my own business right where I am, so I have to hustle to make it happen. That’s never been easy
As an adult, I’ve had to find a balance between the job that I had to have and the job I wished for, but now I’m blessed to be able to work from home and be “a real photographer” while I’m learning to MOM, too. Just being mom is hard. Running a business is hard. Even though I want to pull my hair out some days, I know what a blessing it is to be able to work from home. I get to watch my child grow and learn AND I can do a lot of work in my pajamas while watching FRIENDS.I mentioned a couple of my personality flaws, or what I believe are flaws. Being an introverted homebody makes this job much harder. When I was younger, I imagined other people didn’t like me. I thought I wasn’t pretty, was too fat, not smart, and many other things, I’m sure. I didn’t really feel like I fit in anywhere, so I didn’t draw attention to myself. Today, I feel that I have an obligation to help girls like me. I want to be the adult that I needed then. If my business can somehow create a place where girls can feel welcome, accepted, beautiful in their own way, and appreciated, I would be completely fulfilled in my career. This is what I want to do with my Team.
I know a lot of girls that I serve are perfectly fine with who they are and just enjoy having fun in front of my camera. A lot of other girls (think they) are awkward and uncomfortable. I want them to come in to their Ordering Appointment and be totally blown away by their own beauty. I want them to see themselves through the eyes that everyone loves them sees them. Past the bumps and freckles and imperfect smiles.
If you’re still with me, thank you. Leave me a comment. Let me know what you think. Tell me if you feel the same way.